Dear Diary,

Feeling a little better.
Smiling a little more.
All your words of comfort
painted a wide smile on my face
now i know that you'll always be there
to catch me when I fall.

I love my wonderful best friends!
And they both said Biggirlsdontcry!
hahaaha.

And Roshan wished me the sweetest dream
and really I had the sweetest dream.

My dream was,
okay the only part i clearly remember is
my mommy giving me an envelope
and i saw a huge some of kaching.
and then i asked her what is this for?
She said this $200 is for you to go shopping!

WHOOOHHOO!!!
what a wonderful dream.
really wonderful.
and sweet!

But of course dreams are usually just dreams
and my mom would not do that anytime soon.
hahaha.

Okay might be off to the library alone or with any other takers.
STUDY WIDAD! STUDY!!! OLEVEL LAHHH!!!
lfdhglshfdghfd

Bye!Muah!

Dear Diary,

I dunno why I feel so sad.
I think some people are neglecting me
or is it the other way round?

Sometimes I really can't be bothered.

I think i have a gift.
A gift that god gave me.
This is gift is special
cause i can most of the time read people.
Seriously I dunno if its true.
But I'm useless at handling this gift.

I can't read myself.
No one can.

I have come to a realisation that I have not cried in a very long time.
I just feel like crying right now.
No one's shoulder for me to cry on.

No one to hear me.
Silently on the bed sobbing the night away.
Now tears rolling down my cheeks
I feel better but still keeping quiet
cause I don't really understand myself.

Where are you when I'm feeling down?
Nowhere to be found.
I see you there laughing away
with someone else

Its okay really Im fine with it my dear friend.
Im fine.

Why do I feel like people are hiding things from me?
Its okay I don't even want to know.

This is why I feel that sometimes its better not to have friends.
I have heard this somewhere before
"sometimes having a friend is a more a chore"

UUGHH! i dunno what is wrong with me.
God I really need you now.

This video is cute.
I think its about the uncle trying to get the kids parents.
Something like that.

And this is Aliyah's favourite song.
She like to shake her ass to this song.

Ouhh and the girls in the video gelek not bad siioll

And i like this Arab song.

SECOND POST!

Dear Diary,

I think today is one of my more fruitful days.
Like as in I actually did something good for myself.

Okay so school was not bad.
And went home
and i grabbed a bite.

Half-an hour later
changed and jogged at the park downstairs.
Like 5+ rounds [+-]

Had such a wonderful shower
With music
and the cool water yet warm water flowing down your body and locks.
OOOOOHHHH.
Sooo shiiook.

And now after using the net for an hour.
I might ring up my tuition teacher to study.
Cool. If not also i'll just do homework/revise.

Okay so far, I'm happy and wish to stay like this for now.
But I bet some idiot will ruin it.
Hope not.
ooohhh and she is sooo cute like nak mampos!
I will say " siapa nama Aliyah angkat tangan"
and she will do this pose and raise her hand and say I!
and Ibrahim asked her "Aliyah you know how to speak english"
and she will say "yeahh!!"
but in actual fact she is only 1 + and does not even know how to speak sentences.
GOSHH!! I CANT STAND HERRR SHEE IS SOOOO ADORABLE!!!!!!

Ciao.

Dear Diary,

I think I don't really like
socializing.

I just don't see the point of having so
many friends/acquaintances.
Its like in the end they would not be there
for you.

Or okay lets put it in this situation.
When your in pre-school
and they dont invite you for a party
or whatever the occasion calls for.

But In reality/fact you are quite close to them

Okay I shall no longer elaborate.

I think I might go private.
No one actually bothers.
So I'll keep it all to myself.
So much more easier
to bitch bout someone.

Don't even have to beat round the bush.

Speaking of friends,
I do still like have a bunch of them that
I THINK CARES.

Exhibit A: FAIZ MUSTAQIM [he forced me!]



lazy to put other examples.

Had a blast yesterday at ECP
Picnic.
We lazed,played cards, danced [more like me only],
dozed[ more like farah and acap],
composed songs
and had fun.

Okay
dont you find it weird how a sentence could hurt you or make
you feel ________.[loved,happy,sad,angry,yadayada]

Well I do.
That's why i think they say a pen is mightier than a sword.

Dear Diary,

See just because im pissed,
I get retribution by getting sick.
Thanks.

Its so boring to stay at home
I wished i was not having cramps
early in the morning.

Then now I could be enjoying
the fun and laughter(1) and be
actually studying!

I wonder what i missed.
I hope nothing interesting.
I should be better by the evening
and come to school tomorrow.

Well I'm not wasting money/time/energy
just to go to the clinic.

Ill get my dad to write a letter
that should settle it.

Well it should cause no one wants to see my dad pissed off.
Its 1000x worse than me being pissed :D

Im so bored and tired. I need sleep
In the morning i slept quite well with a hot waterbottle in between
two covers.

Now that's what I call snuggling warm under my covers :DDD

Okay I must be boring whoever actually managed to read up till here.
I subscribed to the word of the day thingy and its still has not sent
me a confirmation email.

oh bother!
Have a wonderful day people!
(1)- And by this I actually dont really know if there will be fun and laughter.
I would most probably have cramps in school.

Dear Diary,

Can you stop fucking annoying me
you fucking fagots?

I know I'm fucking annoying
But wait till i fucking film you
and see how a jackass you really are

wait till you see it for yourself

and please im most of the time kind
to you and why do you have to be so fucking
annoying and bitchy and whatever not that you plan
to do in all of you freakishly sick minds

Oh and all you maggots should feel guilty
cause several of you annoying creatures
are pissing me off

SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST PISS OFF
AND LEAVE ME ALONE

*SLAP SLAP KICK PUNCH SPIT!*

ouh and if you have no fucking feelings
you next time wont react with any shit i blabber
that should hurt your stupid nonexistent heart

and sorry to dissapoint you i do have feelings
so stop hurting me
cause when i really cant fcuking take it anymore
ill break your fucking heart
you regret hurting mine

OH AND WATCH WHAT YOU SAY
ASSHOLE!

Dear Diary,


askldhfkahsf
beylo lahhhh
okayy i dunno what nonsense im typing

yesterday was quite a useful day
We [bye we i mean ME]
did study.

:D

and had a wonderful LU NER
lunch+dinner.

And daidee games.
So not bad uhh.
jlfhsdalfhasf
okay im so fcuking bored
i can eat to death.(?)

i dont think what i just typed
above made sense.

Okay goodbye suckers.